Abnormal

Gees why must you behaved so abnormal as being, showing or acting that you don't care? Or you seriously never mind about it anymore and if is like you're alright with any single thing. I realized that I have actually never know how to react towards it. Is heart broken that when someone meant a lot to you but you're just no longer to keep telling him all the words like I miss you, I love you, you meant the world, you're important and stuff when the particular person is not giving any reactions to you which showed that he is actually or might be numb with all that??? Ouh yea.. I ended up thinking so much as why is he acting that way lately. I do take things seriously but sadly people will only think or thought that I'm fooling around. Like what Andrew actually throw it right on my face! And yes I ended up having a fight with him and telling all sorts of stuff deep down the bottom of my heart. I don't need to prove and I do not need to write on my forehead, start telling and showing everyone that how much I care, how serious I am and stuff alright? If you couldn't feel it then leave it! I would rather keep it to myself. I am tired and I just want someone that I can actually lean on and take care of me. Someone who can actually make me feel belongs to. If you no longer have feelings on me.. Sleepless night and I got to attend that freaking work tomorrow at 730 a.m. and do nothing in the office BUT receiving complains regarding that I am too free. And now I got blame for being free as you hired me for nothing and you got no work for me to do! I would like to throw a sentence of WTF right on your face, stupid bitch! And I do feel like quitting! My patience are so going to reach the limits. It seems like everything so fucked up!

- Nik's wedding pictures will be upload soon -
Signing off * trying to get some sleep
Cath's mood: Upside down. If you're not important..