- What is life?

Seriously speaking, I do not know what is life. All the while I am here, I am suffering. I am wondering why, people just can't let me have a peaceful life. Can peopele understand my feeling? Why must people force me to do something?

For example:

I already completed my Restaurant Practical classes and Kitchen Practical classes, why want to force me to retake the 2 subjects while you know that I am having breathing problem and I can't really handle it? Why can't you try and understand my situation?

I hate the feeling of cannot breathe.
I hate the feeling of tears just rolling down on my face.
I hate the feeling of people looking at me while I am fighting for air.
I hate the feeling of people looking at me while I am suffering and they can't do anything.
I hate to know that my face turn pale and eye pouch turn purple.

Sometimes, how much I feel like enjoy in the Themepark, but I am not allow to. Can you really understand my feelings? Do you really that cruel until you want to see my suffer face only you let me go?

God is being super unfair to me taking my things away! You are being unfair by giving me an unhealthy body. You wants me to suffer this life. I am super disappointed with life! The angel is here with me, I know how much he love me. I will not want to make him heartache.

p/s: I live for who I should live for. Please, give me a peaceful life. I am just asking for a peaceful life. That's all.

Hubby: Thank you for taking care of me. I love the way you hug me while I am not feeling well yesterday. I feel the warm. Sorry, I have made you worried. Muacks. Love Love =* And you are the Angel! Blue one. Haha!!